Such a big thing isn't it?
Today as I ran around the Lake (yes, thinking AGAIN, can you believe it?), and as I passed by one of the restaurants I saw two adults with disabilities in wheelchairs with two carers. Whether the carers were family members or not I don't know. I don't think they were, but won't make assumptions.
I stopped dead in my tracks to be honest. I had to take deep breaths and compose myself.
I just felt so overwhelmingly choked up and overcome with...well worry, sadness, concern...and this feeling of are those adults OK?
Keep in mind that these carers were doing nothing wrong at all. They had obviously just come out of the restaurant and were waiting for transport.
I think I just caught a glimpse of how much trust is involved in leaving your child/adult with a carer.
I mean, what if those adults actually wanted to go see the ducks. What if they wanted to do something other than be at a restaurant?
Ryley is non-verbal.
He can't really say what he wants to do for the day.
This is what gets me the most.
For those people with a disability who can't express what they want...what if their carers are actually doing the complete opposite of what they are wanting?
Maybe they want vegemite instead of jam on their toast.
Imagine a world where you are trying desperately to say what you want, thinking that your sounds are doing just that, only to find that your carers, the people who love you, are doing the exact opposite.
Now, as a parent, who knows all that, how hard is it to leave your child or adult with someone else?
Pretty damn hard hey.
All too often I hear horrifying stories of people with disabilities being abused. It makes me physically sick.
With all that in mind, how do you trust others?
I have to trust Ryley's teachers at school. I have to trust that they won't harm him.
I have to trust family and friends.
But can I truly trust anyone other than David and I?
I shall ponder that on my next run.
Or if anyone has the answer...let me know please!