Showing posts from December, 2011

Things I have learnt this year

Here we are finally at the end of 2011. To be honest, this year has totally sucked. It has been one of the crappest years in a long time. I am still trying to make sense of some of the things that have happened, and I am still trying to figure out the reasons 'why' we have had to go through them. Maybe I won't ever know what those reasons are though. So what have I learnt this year? I am not too bad at organising stuff. The conference is one example. I sort of did ok with that. I have some anxiety issues. Not terrible. Not world ending/life imparing stuff. But it does sometimes effect me. Panic Attacks suck too. I have an incredible husband. I mean. I already knew that. But we are closer and stronger than ever. Ryley has taught me more about patience this year than ever. Braeden has taught me to try new things and to find my courage. I am stronger than I think I am-someone very close to me keeps reminding me of this. I have wonderful friends who continue to su

The inbetween blog post

So obviously I am going to write a wonderful reflective post about the year that has been and the hopes for 2012. But right now,here is the inbetween post. The one where I say how awesome our christmas was and how much fun we are having on our holidays so far. Kids are relaxed and so are we. Of course no holiday period would be complete without the obligatory trip to the doctor now would it? I mean, someone has to keep those medical practitioners busy. Le sigh. The kids have this really weird itchy blotchy feral looking rash on them. I had no real idea what it is. According to the doctor they have a "viral type allergic reaction rash that could be anything, but should clear up within a week". Well now. How super helpful was THAT diagnosis? A bit of claryntyne and some extra stuff for Braeden's ezcema and it should all be fine and dandy. I guess the good bit is that we didn't actually pay. The kind doctor decided that while he was bulk billing one, he m

Remembering the year that was...

 I have spent a fair chunk of my day today trying to make this movie. Fingers crossed it works. Though knowing my computer skills, it may not... The song is "Party Rock Anthem" by LMFAO. It is seriously the song of the year I think. My kids LOVE to dance to it. We listened to it all the way to the Barossa earlier on this year (9 hours of driving). And personally, I don't mind it either, because it reminds me of the all the good times we have had during 2011.

My Braeden

My little Braeden is quite unwell at the moment and I simply cannot seem to make him better. As I was lying in bed cuddling him this morning, all that I could think of was the fact that I just didn't know what to do next to help him. With Ryley, I know what to do 9 times out of 10. The other 1 time I will always go to the doctor. And even then I am usually right with what is wrong and needed to make him well again. Braeden visited the doctor for the first time a couple of weeks ago. Pretty good going really (first time in nearly 4 years).  He had to go to the doctor again on Friday night (well the hospital actually). And to be honest, he probably needs to go again (I think? Fuck. I just don't know).  I have to say that stress is playing a major role here. Braeden was really affected by the craziness of the conference week. And now, even a month later, he is still showing that he is not ok. I am a social worker right? I should be able to help him through this yeah? I sho

Little ball of anger

That describes Ryley at the moment. A little ball of anger. He is tired tired tired. Something in his body doesn't seem right. And I don't know what it is. This morning I wrestled with him for 20 mins. He just didn't want to get dressed. The look of anger on his face was something I rarely see. Then when I took him to the bus he was pushing the attendent in the face and trying to pull her glasses off. (Which is kind of funny, but I promise I didn't giggle...well maybe on the inside). I have never seen him do that to anybody other than me. His school concert is tonight and I know he will be nervous. He always gets nervous. We have a tradition on school concert night where we have fish and chips for tea, then we get an ice-cream on the way home as we look at some christmas lights. Ryley loves the bit after he has been on stage. Braeden is beside himself with excitement about the concert tonight. I hope that some of the anger Ryley is showing me is becaus

Just 'Cos (Christmas version)

And here we have the annual Christmas tree photos. We FINALLY have the tree up. Ryley just put some tinsel on. Braeden putting the star on Christmas 2011