Have you ever closed your eyes and tried to navigate your way around your house?
What about closing one eye and then squinting with the other and trying to complete a task with your non-dominant hand?
We found out just over a week ago that Ryley has virtually no eyesight.
We knew he was blind in his right eye, but have always assumed that the sight in his left eye was ok. We knew it wasn't wonderful, but we still thought it was pretty good.
How can you miss the fact that your son can't see?
How can you not notice the difficulties he is having with walking are more to do with the fact he can't see where he is going?
How can you not notice that when he cries, it is because he can't see you, and is frightened?
Well, somehow, I missed the fact that he is basically blind.
Another fine example of my parenting skills.
So Ryley now has glasses which he is starting to realise he needs to keep on.
He is amazed at how different life looks and this is a wonderful thing (heartbreaking though to think he may have been unable to see for a long time).
Here he is watching TV and actually able to see what is going on. About 50% of the time he is keeping his glasses on so far.
The other 50% of the time he looks like this:
But we know it will take a bit for him to adjust to having glasses. His world has been completely thrown upside down.
Everything he knew before has changed, and it will take some getting used to.
I guess you can only try and focus on what is positive from all of this.
And that is, at least we have found out now before his eyesight deteriorated so much that nothing would help him.
Things I have learnt from this:
I really need to find more time to fit appointments in.
I really need to find time to make appointments and follow up on things.
I really need more time.
I am excited for Ryley as the world opens up to him again.
I remember feeling excited for him when we started the Ketogenic Diet too, as it meant giving him another chance to enjoy life.
So so proud of him.
(And extremely proud of Braeden who has been encouraging him to wear his glasses, catching them as they get tossed away and cleaning them constantly with the little yellow cloth).