My little Braeden is quite unwell at the moment and I simply cannot seem to make him better.
As I was lying in bed cuddling him this morning, all that I could think of was the fact that I just didn't know what to do next to help him.
With Ryley, I know what to do 9 times out of 10. The other 1 time I will always go to the doctor. And even then I am usually right with what is wrong and needed to make him well again.
Braeden visited the doctor for the first time a couple of weeks ago. Pretty good going really (first time in nearly 4 years). He had to go to the doctor again on Friday night (well the hospital actually). And to be honest, he probably needs to go again (I think? Fuck. I just don't know).
I have to say that stress is playing a major role here. Braeden was really affected by the craziness of the conference week. And now, even a month later, he is still showing that he is not ok.
I am a social worker right? I should be able to help him through this yeah? I should be able to stop the regression I see happening before my eyes. I should be able to manage the fact that he told me this morning he was worried about Ryley.
Well I can't.
I can't even help him be physically well.
I just don't know what to do next.
Bring on the holidays, some sleep, some time to relax. Hopefully that is all he needs.