Saturday, December 31, 2011

Things I have learnt this year

Here we are finally at the end of 2011.

To be honest, this year has totally sucked.
It has been one of the crappest years in a long time.
I am still trying to make sense of some of the things that have happened, and I am still trying to figure out the reasons 'why' we have had to go through them.
Maybe I won't ever know what those reasons are though.

So what have I learnt this year?
  1. I am not too bad at organising stuff. The conference is one example. I sort of did ok with that.
  2. I have some anxiety issues. Not terrible. Not world ending/life imparing stuff. But it does sometimes effect me. Panic Attacks suck too.
  3. I have an incredible husband. I mean. I already knew that. But we are closer and stronger than ever.
  4. Ryley has taught me more about patience this year than ever.
  5. Braeden has taught me to try new things and to find my courage.
  6. I am stronger than I think I am-someone very close to me keeps reminding me of this.
  7. I have wonderful friends who continue to support us year after year.
  8. There is no place like home. It is where our heart is.
  9. I can do anything I dream of. I just need the confidence to do it.
Ok, that is enough. Now for some of the goals for next year. I am only going to share some of them. Mainly the ones that will become part of my blog next year.

  1. Be better at blogging!!! I will have the time and headspace next year to blog my heart away. I am actually aiming to have 100 followers next year. The first time I have ever aimed for anything with the blog really. But I am hoping to reach more people, and spend more time writing about the more..ahem..controversial things that I love to have an opinion on.
  2. Run in the Run Melbourne in July to support 4p Aussie Kidz. I better start training me thinks!
  3. Expand my vegie garden and hopefully be able to reduce my vegie costs by 50%. We managed it in 2010, but this year I just couldn't spend time in my beloved garden.
  4. Start our dream (some of you may already know what this is. For those that don't, stay tuned).
  5. We are really hoping to have no stays in hospital this year. High hopes I know. But fingers crossed.
That will do. We really are aiming to try and spend more time relaxing, enjoying the little things in life. I am going to organise regular respite if I can, because it really is important to have some time out every now and then.

I want to thank all my readers for spending time reading this little blog this year. I know the posts have been sporadic and a little all over the place. I love that my regular readers have spent time commenting and supporting us through what has been a very dark and difficult year. There have been some highlights too of course which included the conference and the joys of watching my kids grow and develop.
I wish you all a wonderful 2012, full of Faith, Hope and Love.

See you next year!!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

The inbetween blog post

So obviously I am going to write a wonderful reflective post about the year that has been and the hopes for 2012.
But right now,here is the inbetween post.
The one where I say how awesome our christmas was and how much fun we are having on our holidays so far.
Kids are relaxed and so are we.

Of course no holiday period would be complete without the obligatory trip to the doctor now would it? I mean, someone has to keep those medical practitioners busy.
Le sigh.

The kids have this really weird itchy blotchy feral looking rash on them.
I had no real idea what it is.
According to the doctor they have a "viral type allergic reaction rash that could be anything, but should clear up within a week".
Well now.
How super helpful was THAT diagnosis?

A bit of claryntyne and some extra stuff for Braeden's ezcema and it should all be fine and dandy.

I guess the good bit is that we didn't actually pay. The kind doctor decided that while he was bulk billing one, he might as well bulk bill the other.
Just as well really, because to be honest, I could probably have told him it was some kind of viral weird rash thingy that will get better soon. Ha!


Here are some pics of the kids. Fishing is one of the main activities for our holidays so far. I actually ate Eel today. Never mind the fact that I totally freaked out when David and Braeden brought them home last night. I pretty much couldn't be in the same room actually.
But Braeden convinced me to give it a try. So I did. Tastes alright actually.
Those slippery little things that look like snakes still freak me out though.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Remembering the year that was...

 I have spent a fair chunk of my day today trying to make this movie. Fingers crossed it works. Though knowing my computer skills, it may not...
The song is "Party Rock Anthem" by LMFAO. It is seriously the song of the year I think. My kids LOVE to dance to it. We listened to it all the way to the Barossa earlier on this year (9 hours of driving). And personally, I don't mind it either, because it reminds me of the all the good times we have had during 2011.


Monday, December 19, 2011

My Braeden

My little Braeden is quite unwell at the moment and I simply cannot seem to make him better.

As I was lying in bed cuddling him this morning, all that I could think of was the fact that I just didn't know what to do next to help him.
With Ryley, I know what to do 9 times out of 10. The other 1 time I will always go to the doctor. And even then I am usually right with what is wrong and needed to make him well again.

Braeden visited the doctor for the first time a couple of weeks ago. Pretty good going really (first time in nearly 4 years).  He had to go to the doctor again on Friday night (well the hospital actually). And to be honest, he probably needs to go again (I think? Fuck. I just don't know). 

I have to say that stress is playing a major role here. Braeden was really affected by the craziness of the conference week. And now, even a month later, he is still showing that he is not ok.
I am a social worker right? I should be able to help him through this yeah? I should be able to stop the regression I see happening before my eyes. I should be able to manage the fact that he told me this morning he was worried about Ryley.

Well I can't.

I can't even help him be physically well. 

I just don't know what to do next.

Bring on the holidays, some sleep, some time to relax. Hopefully that is all he needs.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Little ball of anger

That describes Ryley at the moment.
A little ball of anger.
He is tired tired tired.
Something in his body doesn't seem right.
And I don't know what it is.

This morning I wrestled with him for 20 mins. He just didn't want to get dressed.
The look of anger on his face was something I rarely see.

Then when I took him to the bus he was pushing the attendent in the face and trying to pull her glasses off.
(Which is kind of funny, but I promise I didn't giggle...well maybe on the inside).
I have never seen him do that to anybody other than me.

His school concert is tonight and I know he will be nervous. He always gets nervous.
We have a tradition on school concert night where we have fish and chips for tea, then we get an ice-cream on the way home as we look at some christmas lights.
Ryley loves the bit after he has been on stage.
Braeden is beside himself with excitement about the concert tonight.

I hope that some of the anger Ryley is showing me is because he is nervous about tonight and he is tired.
I hope that he has a sleep after school tonight.
I hope that this isn't the start of puberty*. Because god help me if it is.
All I can do is cuddle him, apply some deep pressure and hope we make it through until holidays.

*Kids with WHS are known to start puberty early around the age of 9. Ryley is nearly 10.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Just 'Cos (Christmas version)

And here we have the annual Christmas tree photos.
We FINALLY have the tree up.

Ryley just put some tinsel on.

Braeden putting the star on

Christmas 2011


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